My resolve.

2010-12-08T23:42:00.001+08:00

Saturday is coming~~~~ I will be free like a bird and after tat I can have a real good rest.

2010-07-25T18:15:00.001+08:00

Feel very chui.. Wonder how hard im working is going to pay off..
Only current hope is to get into SIM after NS, highly doubt ill be able to go to NTU or other good Uni=_=.. Should have worked harder in year 1.. My GPA.. sigh.. Too many regrets in my life. primary school, secondary and now poly.. what to do.. blame it on myself

2010-07-06T00:21:00.002+08:00

Today is considered a very tiring day.. After a long boring day of lab management lesson.. stayed after lesson for FYP discussion... Was too tired and wasnt really paying much attention during the dicussion period. ( Felt bad )
Just when the girls were about to go home.. the team leader Ong Sotong fiona, lol take out a small gift for each of us (fyp members) I was surprised and at the same time happy cuz theres chocolate and sweet! Haha.. Thank you leader. Respect.
Everyones feeling the pressure.. UTs.. reports.. soon assessment is coming and we have ought to get our poster done. The things to be done were allocated to each of us. Everyone of us change from a happy go lucky person to.. a dull looking .. dread going to sch everyday.. Can feel the workload.. everything is all about achieving good grades. Sigh..
Other things that made me sian was the comment I recieved from Sally, she commented your report is "OK".. Fine.. just a okay.. got to send in the freakin third draft by this thursday AHHH FOOOOOK ! but best thing is ar.. she sent the wrong report back to me which is the 1st draft with the old comments.. =__=
Okay another thing.. Immuno grade. I put in my effort to study hoping I would get a good grade.. but its rather disappointing.. not up to my own expectation. I want at least a B.. and tmr's UT2 for immunology. Hope it'll be alright and get things clarified with Eric chua by tmr! Fitness trainign early in the morning tmr before going to lessons gonna be a shitty day again.. but uhh fk i got to focus tmr and prepare myself for the UT2. Damn damn.

2010-06-24T22:02:00.001+08:00

Seororo is OMG. HAHAHA. She is too innocent to the extent that at the age of 19 this year.. she doesnt know whats first love and even asked Yonghwa the difference between liking and love...=_____=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhWyFes6Cqo

2010-06-11T22:25:00.002+08:00

我是谁
你是否常常这样问自己
我是谁
总是活在别人的期望里
我是谁
是谁又擅自帮你定义了
你是谁
只有不是自己才安全

为什么
你以为这个世界很美丽
为什么
你爱这个世界胜过爱自己
为什么
这个世界不给你平等待遇
为什么
到底做错了什么

*朋友都说你太太太奇怪
在背后把你当成笑笑笑话看
每一个动作都被瞎猜
他们说你是个不能容忍的存在

你想要的很很很简单
不过就是最普通的的的平凡
诚实做自己有时候很难
但是请你勇敢的试一次看看

**无论他们又说什么
闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我
没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什么
小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful*

2010-04-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

I couldnt help but to stare at your photo..Why?

2010-04-17T01:49:00.000+08:00

Many times I told myself to forget everything..seems that its hard.
I just wan to start afresh.. I wish theres a "delete" button to delete part of these memories for good.
I see familiarities of you in others. I stopped for a second staring, checking yet again to assure myself. Its not..
Srsly..fk.. sigh

2010-04-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

Why can't we have a peaceful and quiet family?

2010-03-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

未来的日子你们一定要快乐

2010-03-20T00:20:00.000+08:00

SNSD's latest song. Run devil run just so addictive ! They all sounded really good in the MV and live.

Except for the weird hairstyle of hyoyeon and tiffany in the live..-.- Only managed to find these 4 pictures of the black soshi =| Hope I can grab their new album in Korea

2010-03-13T00:40:00.001+08:00

Nuna you are so pretty,
Boys wont leave you alone
Honestly, I know your shaking feelings
To you I know this love is one moment, one feeling
But no matter what is said, this is my lifes everything

Maybe you are worried about my young age
But look into my eyes, what is it telling you?
and I think Im gonna hate it girl
if the end comes
Your heart will tell you, regardless of what others say

Nuna you are so beautiful
Looking at you I go crazy
But now I am tired
replay, replay, replay
Memories swipe at my heart
It hurts, when will my feelings be fixed
The ever drawing day of good bye
replay, replay, replay

Nuna you are my M.V.P
I know your nerves makes you a bit stiff
Me with you is so cool
Dont let go of my hand
this promise I made to you
i know that it became a lie

Maybe to you, I am a little too boring, too kind
Your body is telling me
and I think Im gonna hate it girl
when the end comes
My heart is yelling in front of the goodbye

Nuna you are so beautiful
Looking at you I go crazy
But now I am tired
Make up, shake up, break up
Memories swipe at my heart
It hurts, when will my feelings be fixed
The ever drawing day of good bye
Make up, shake up, break up

Ah ah, beautiful you
Ah ah, I know has yet to find
with anyone a sincere love
Ah ah, Although its such a waste
Ah ah, I have given to you
at such a young age sincere love
can you not accept it?

Nuna you are so beautiful
Looking at you I go crazy
But now I am tired
replay, replay, replay
Memories swipe at my heart
It hurts, when will my feelings be fixed
The ever drawing day of good bye
replay, replay, replay

Nuna you are so beautiful
Looking at you I go crazy
Uh, Our love
Crazy,
But now I am tired
Uh I just go crazy cuz
Replay, replay, replay
I I I love you gurl
Memories swipe at my heart
Hurts so much my heart
Uh, my heart hurts
Fix it
The ever drawing day of good bye
Yo I wanna hold U girl
Replay, Replay, Replay
I I I love you

Nuna you are so beautiful
(I keep thinkin bout you)
Nuna so beautiful
(I keep dreaming bout you)
Have you tasted sincere love?
Nuna you are so beautiful
(I keep thinkin bout you)
Nuna so beautiful
(I keep dreaming bout you)
Have you seen sincere love?

2010-03-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

1, 2, 3, 4, again 1, 2, 3, 4

Stars, I'm going crazy

No matter how many times I look at you, I can't see you, oh baby

Because of the tears in my eyes, all because of you

My crying face that is reflecting above the spread letters, oh baby

I promised myself I wouldn't cry again, but I'm crying again

What do I do, I don't know what to do, what to do

This is me, I don't know why I'm going crazy like this

All because of you, really because of you

I can't do anything, I

Love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars

I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star

Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say

I really can't express myself

I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

No matter how many times I count, I can't see the end, oh baby

Because of all the memories that are in my heart, I think of you again

I couldn't say everything I wanted to so I say them to myself, oh baby

I want you back, I want to go back to your side

I'm pleading to you, please, I'm pleading to you

To the sky, my prayer goes to the sky

Cheer me up, cheer me up

Please, where are you now

Stars, stars, stars, stars, talk to me

Is it over? Is that it? Answer me, don't just laugh

Stars, stars, stars, stars, I'm pleading to you

Just for once, my love

Let me fly to your side

Star, star, star, ooh baby, star, star, star, oh

I love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars

I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star

Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say

I really can't express myself

I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

Star Star Star - Girls Generation/SNSD

2010-02-28T12:15:00.000+08:00

It takes time to forget, but I'll try.

2010-02-28T10:05:00.000+08:00

Yawns....

Dam tired.. + sian...
My money in bank number keep dropping... At this rate im going.. sooner or later my bank become 0 dollars ar..
Yst go lunar bar at clarke quay. 50 bucks fly ~~~
Opened 1 chivas regal the other one put there 1 month..
But good place to slack actually, the singer there were good..but most of them were chinese songs.. racist -.- and the songs quite lao tu lei.. kaox..The age group for that bar was more of for adults than young adults like us..like seriously.
Then lat and wilson was tipsy after drinking two cups of chivas.. then soon after we cabbed home.
Nv going back to that bar again T_T

2010-02-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

A day of jo bo lan feels good :)

But tio suan by janice the noob at the end of the day while I was still enjoying my GREAT day !!.. see what she says in her blog.. noob-.-..

QUOTE:"Because I believe that , after all the bad thing , the good thing will come soon =D . hehe .
Sa wong si ma ,yan zhi fei fu . (Ps , my lappy unable to type chinese word )
(Peter I knw u don understand the meaning , wahhaaha )"

.......................................*speechless*

2010-02-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

SNACKS SNACKS SNACKS AND MORE SNACKS !!!

Craving for more cakes oreo cheesecakes, choco cakes, brownies with hazel nuts, strawberry cakes, mango cakes, cheesecakes, blueberry cakes !!! But too expensive, can't afford to buy that much just to satisfy my whims.. =(

I also find that eating can also be a way of releasing stress too O_O. Amazing isn't it? Haha
Thats the wonder of food ! But it seems that my stomach has a bottomless pit. I can keep stuffing myself with food. ATE ALOT. But still feels empty. Or are there tapeworms in my stomach? NO IDEA..

OK SLEEP TIME.Tmr still got fyp workshop at 9am.. gotta wake up early just for that..
Nights earthlings =)

2010-02-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

我愛著誰告訴我你是誰
能夠把我讓我變不對
你不會累　但我卻愛你愛到好累　
他不會是個好男人　也不會是個好情人
你對我說　我們只是擦肩而過　
我以為我的溫柔能給妳整個宇宙
我以為我能全力填滿妳感情的缺口
專心陪在妳左右彌補他一切的錯
也許我太過天真以為奇蹟會發生
就算未來有多少錯
至少還有我的問候我的溫柔陪你渡過

2010-02-20T02:04:00.001+08:00

Seriously thinks I got to manage and deal with things around me properly and to keep myself from thinking of those negative thoughts. They haunt me badly.. its like a 24hrs of nightmare every now and then.
What should I do?

Boring Chinese new year =(

2010-02-16T17:21:00.000+08:00

Worst Chinese new year ever.
Chinese new year to me is just all about staying at home. Rot. face the wall. Jo bo lan.
Anticipated so much for CNY and it sucks to be doing nothing at home. Luckily yesterday went out with zy, yj, mok and edmund.. at least wasnt as bored as staying at home like today.
Wat da poop?
SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM BOREDOM PWEASE???

2010-02-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

I ate too much food . Ate like 2 rounds for dinner the day before and 2 rounds of lunch + 2 bowls of longan. This morning stomache cuz probably my stomach wasnt able to take it due to the huge intake of food at a time which might have caused indigestion. Stomach hurts badly, hope it will be better tomorrow.

But good thing is that I have made transaction for my pants and shirt which I came across and I thought was nice.. I have indeed spent so much in less than a week-__- Now Im left with is my new year shoes ar. crap pocket burn until gao gao. Hope can recoup for what I have spent by working part time jobs during the long holidays!

[Oh I forgot, i need to reset the timing cuz its messed it, which I dunno how to.. Oh well ] Goodnight people!

2010-02-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

Dam tiring day for yesterday and today man.
Prepared for the kong teck for grandpa yesterday
But had lots of fun yesterday fooling around with my cousins.. though the rest was not able to make it due to school and sutff..
Went to ang mo kio shopping centre walk walk with sisters and cousins.. saw some interesting items that can be given as birthday presents. 1 of which was something like a glass and a condom inside and the thing stated" break in-case of emergency" I just can't stop laughing lol.
Then this early morning woke up at around 9am and today was the rituals for a good whole straight 5 hours or so with in-between breaks.

Hope ah ma,ah gong and uncle are enjoying their stay in the new house in the netherworld together.

2010-01-29T23:51:00.000+08:00

Im in a train of thoughts.
Are there any ways of eradicating all these redundants thoughts and some of which are just.... Its more of like my mind controlling me and I seem to have lost my senses. Everything seem inexplicable even me myself also can't explain what I am going through. Thoughts just keep flashing through my mind. Is it stress?

It is just depressing to even mention about my grades and overall GPA...... I get bogged down easily by problems that seemed hard to me and I have no idea of how to assuage my problems despite helps from my classmates and friends T_T
Time flies.. I am left with 1 more week to school now before this semester really ends man. Damn.. and after which is my understanding test 3 which will be crucial in pulling up my GPA. Well, hopefully.

[sentimental thoughts...]
My dear friend.. reminiscing of the times when we fooled around ..talked about our favourite pastimes and game, I got to know him even more and we hang out together even more. Until the day when things made an absolute change to his life.. Why bad things happen to someone who was still young and cheerful teenager? Back then it was hard to come with terms that it did really happen, everyone of us was concerned about his condition how long is it going to get him to fully recover, any chances of going back to school and etc.
But few months back when me, lat, yujun, murni, wei ting, john and hafez went over to his house again.. he could recognised everyone of us and pointed to us when his maid asked who is who. We were all elated ! He even recognizes whos the stinky bitch ![ Sim bian] His reaction was damn funny when he actually held on to the soft toy and crushed and hit it hard on ! Haha
But due to tight schedules.. we havent get to pay him a visit still.. FYP.. zz
Hopefully can go visit him during free day during holidays. Hopefully before going for the student trip to Korea~

I am also really Lookign forward to the KOREA TRIP ! DAMN DAMN !

I hope I can go korea there snap lots and lots of photos.. its going to be a fantastic one, I hope. Except for the curfew.. sucks... Buy clothes, shopping and more shopping and I also get to have exchange with the korea students.. Hmmm interesting Huh ?! Its going to be a good ten whole days of fun I hope.

Plus whats better? Kc's birthday is during the period when we are in Korea. Birthday BASH~~~ WOOOHOO

2010-01-24T18:19:00.000+08:00

Has finally completed logging till meeting 10...Gawd -__-

I still haven rest enough yet... FML

2010-01-12T22:20:00.000+08:00

It seems that I am looking for those similiar to you ? Can I not see you again in my eyes. The pain of you branded in my heart is death. I became so similar to you that I even copied your habits

2010-01-09T13:42:00.000+08:00

Next week gonna be a busy week.. .......

2010-01-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

Thought that I have put in enough effort and answered the questions correctly.. but seems not like it anymore

Shouldnt have checked for answers.. spoil my mood FML.

2010-01-06T18:42:00.000+08:00

Need to get a new blogskin soon T_T something happened to my blogskin ..

2010-01-03T15:18:00.000+08:00

Vexed, irritated, mad, insane

so SHINGZZZZ

2010-01-03T12:04:00.001+08:00

And its back to school tomorrow.. zzz

2010-01-03T01:04:00.000+08:00

Tired of life in singapore.. like totally..
How I wish I could just live a rustic lifestyle and find myself a new environment of perfectly exquisite serenity, of less hectic lifestyle.

Just train of thoughts.. many more other thoughts .. and things I have never experienced before.. whats wrong? God this is killing me

2010-01-01T22:06:00.001+08:00

Wants to learn both jap and korean now T_T

The three bear song!

2010-01-01T14:50:00.000+08:00

Gom se-mari-ga Han ji-be isseo Appa gom, omma gom, ae-gi gom Appa go-meun tung tung hae Omma go-meun nal-shin-hae Ae-gi go-meun neo-moo ki-yeo-wo Eu-sseuk, eu-sseuk, jal-han-da

Gotta love this song man. Haha

2009-11-30T00:52:00.000+08:00

Perhaps I just need you to tell me that you have never got feelings for me

2009-05-04T14:42:00.000+08:00

Boringgggggggggg@@@In class now boring lesson la seriously physics le kao..
Checked my grade got B for material science..FK..

Comments for Individual: Why did you voice out little during presentation, whereas your two teammates kept fighting for the team?

WTF..could have gotten a A but didnt understand the dam shit till i asked Janice.. so didnt voice out luh...what a waste could have gotten A actually..SIGH..

PP also needs to be done, Chemistry needs to be revised, and many more..need to attend ce talks

HELP PLEASE ~~

I needa go for a swim ! or jogging again soon .
STRESS STRESS

2009-04-26T14:29:00.000+08:00

Sigh..weekends are meant to be enjoyed, and spent on meaningful activities. hobbies..relaxation.

But I've always spent them on gaming/sleeping.. My weekends are always fuck'd up..

School? No mood?
I have no aim in my life.

What to do?

*question marks*

2009-04-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

Today's lesson is somewhat fuck'dup.. Don;t really understand what the Indian facilitator was saying today..no offence ..but I was having a hard time trying to listen to what she was saying.. ah..kay whatever..

CLASS TODAY
- today's team was good. Good team mates too of course ah ha..

after school went for some basketballing with friends: haojie, alfred, Jin and haojie's friend. Under the hot sun, god dam.. the fking light rays was like piercing through my skin its so pain alright. as usual JIN the ass clown teased me again [that fat ass noob -.-] Should have shoved something up into his ass !! ahaha.. . Was having a hard time trying to endure the blistering heat, then decided to left that place [ which is akin to hell ] and head off for badminton.

Was urm.. fun but tiring la..old already play what-.- stamina is really that bad now u see and almost tripped..how clumsy can I be.

Went for dinner after badminton and etc then head off home

PS. it was really a tiring day . But..had a great day today

Cheers HOOHOO!!

SCHOOL

2009-04-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

School..school.. Alright..School not bad actually.. just too much of the confusion over those scientific terms that are new to me. Just hope everything will be fine after the next few lessons la.

I have actually made up plans..for my weekends.

Read-ups on articles on the websites/look through chemistry textbook [from my sis]-->plan on what I have got to do for my PP-.- [lame task]--> read through D&T textbook

Uts soon. Have gotta work hard ye..and im trying to refrain myself from play game: RUNESCAPE. lmao.

"Love"

2008-11-22T09:51:00.001+08:00

People often use the word “love” as a representation of how they feel towards the people around them, especially to their love ones. But what exactly is “love” and what is it defined as?
Basically, love is an intense feeling of tender affection and compassion towards a person or a group of people, and it can be clearly shown through outward behaviour, such as hand gestures; verbally pronounced words/phrases to the other party and etc, OR implied through paralanguage. It is something that does not exist physically.

Personally, I feel that love does exist. Love could be developed through different ways, through a boy-girl relationship; kinship; intimate relationship between friends; or between parents and children over time. An emotional bond between them is then bred.

Take for example, when two strangers interact with each other, both will not feel even a tinge of love/affection towards each other, but as compared to two good friends who have been through thick and thins and sharing weal and woes together, a strong emotional bond is bred accompanied with love and affection too. This stands to reason that love does exist but only between people who have intimate relationship with.

I feel that love could be genuine or not genuine, and it is deeply felt within someone, unless one is a callous and cold-hearted person, their perception would be that love does not exist in this material world, and it isn’t true that all non-physical things are regarded and labelled as “NON-EXISTING”.

The days AFTER O LVL !

2008-11-05T10:23:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging much recently..

My O lvl english paper finished for already like close to 2 weeks..was rather hard ..:\. could just say..the paper was sucha B**** ! and soooo.. i decided to go back to my regular sports routine .BASKEBALL .

Well, these few days I been doing workouts ! BASKETBALL and JOGGING ! butttttttt..IM STILL LETHARGIC ! especially when it comes to work work work ! WTF NO ! I just couldnt focus myself with the things I'm on now.
I got a dull lifestyle...Basketball, any other sports, comp,musc,bath,eat,sleep. What else?

ANYWAY, thats all for now folks!

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RP LIFE !

2008-10-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

AH F*** ! seriously wats this man. so boring. this stupid rp system has been grating on me since t first day i step nto this school its just bullshit..come on. classes these few days are just boring .i mean boring lessons u know..

Things dont seem to be improving and i think I have sunk into this stupid damn thing again and worrying over how my life in rp for the next 2 years be like ..and was talking to colin about how RP ****s, and hah..yea and so we went on taling about it ..meh just dun like it ..what can we do..

Exams in like wat? 1 or 2 weeks time ..OH EM GEE ! written paper ! I HATE DOING WRITTE PAPER ESPECIALLY WHEN ITS GONNA BE 2 HOURS+ OR SO FOR BOTH PAPER 1 ND 2 !!

Fuck'd up, stress'd up !

,,!,,-.-,,!,,

hello..

2008-08-08T00:22:00.001+08:00

BLOG IS BACK ~